My babysitter is my lifeline
Sometimes I think the only thing keeping me sane in life is my babysitter. Because of her, I am able to take a couple nights off a week so I can keep dancing and keep in contact with my life outside of my kids. As an added bonus, she tidies up the toys the kids leave out, which honestly means so much to me. It can mean the difference between feeling overwhelmed and stressed...or not.
I work from home and currently have my 4-year-old at home with me, so I often have to overlook/ignore his messy antics so I can focus on my job and make money to continue to support myself. I still feel every social pressure out there to have an immaculate house (because I work from home) and often find it difficult to justify taking the time to clean when I could be using that time to work (and make money to pay off my every increasing debt) instead.
So when the mess accumulates and I feel stressed, all I want to do is hide and cry because I can't seem to find the work/life balance. I don't have extra financial support to take time off work comfortably to keep my house is much better shape and I feel guilty. It makes me feel like I shouldn't be dancing, so I can work instead (plus, I pay $60/week in babysitter fees) and I could use that money instead as well.
However, I do need that connection and that physical exercise and that "me" time. And having a sitter, someone who is willing to spend the 10 minutes picking up toys that I feel like I can't manage, often feels like I can find the strength to keep working and justify paying her wages and working extra and I feel strong again.
My babysitter is my lifeline and that, to me, is priceless.
I work from home and currently have my 4-year-old at home with me, so I often have to overlook/ignore his messy antics so I can focus on my job and make money to continue to support myself. I still feel every social pressure out there to have an immaculate house (because I work from home) and often find it difficult to justify taking the time to clean when I could be using that time to work (and make money to pay off my every increasing debt) instead.
So when the mess accumulates and I feel stressed, all I want to do is hide and cry because I can't seem to find the work/life balance. I don't have extra financial support to take time off work comfortably to keep my house is much better shape and I feel guilty. It makes me feel like I shouldn't be dancing, so I can work instead (plus, I pay $60/week in babysitter fees) and I could use that money instead as well.
However, I do need that connection and that physical exercise and that "me" time. And having a sitter, someone who is willing to spend the 10 minutes picking up toys that I feel like I can't manage, often feels like I can find the strength to keep working and justify paying her wages and working extra and I feel strong again.
My babysitter is my lifeline and that, to me, is priceless.
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