Surviving Life's Storm

"You're just so chill compared to before." "I can't get over how organised you are; you aren't willy-nilly all over the place." "You seem calmer than you have in a long time." I made some personal decisions in the past couple weeks and have felt more purpose in my life since making those decisions than I have in a long while.  I'm choosing to go back to Church.  I haven't gone regularly since I was 22 and never felt the need.  After my boyfriend and I broke up, I realized I needed a new emotional support and I needed one that wasn't in the form of a single person who could easily slip out of my life.  I need a village to raise and protect my children.  I need my boys to feel comforted and sheltered from multiple adults.  I need for them to see happy healthy relationships in adults, both as friends and as couples.  I want them to be surrounded by kids their ages and hopefully feel the inner sense of peace and belonging that kept ...

I'm not the chattiest person out there but if something is on my mind, I'll tell nearly anyone willing to listen (within reason).  So imagine my surprise when I realized I've been keeping more close-mouthed than usual.  Not because I don't have the same drama (I do - sigh), but I feel like I'm getting tired of talking.  I don't want to tell all the nitty gritty details of my break up with my boyfriend.  I don't want to talk about the fact that I found 47 blocked messages from my ex husband.  I'm kind of just...done.  I don't want to focus on those if it takes my focus off my work.  I don't know if I experienced a sort of mental reboot recently or if it's because I'm exercising more or what.  And honestly...I don't care to find out.  I'm done stressing about every little detail (lol, jk). I just want to live my life , unapologetically, with no regrets, and no burdens.